tired...

i'm super sleepy but still have to head to camp soon. it kinda hard to blog with all the security reasons around and i don't wanna get myself into poop.

yesterday was the usual dreadful day for all the hopeless singletons like me. well, it wasn't as bad as it used to be and again, i do not have a date for company. like what keith said, gaylentine's day.

was out to get camp supplies and eat. yes. eat. from golden mile food centre's pasta, to crystal jade at suntec. lots of walking and lots of talking cock with robert and wei wen. only wei wen was sulking over being late by a few steps, while robert and i were just hanging out and having some usual guy fun. he's got a gf, so we're not gay, even though we were wearing the same watch and having the same phone, not excatly coz i've got the camera version of E51.

i've been wondering over the word contentment. like what most of us do agree, "humans can never be contented". absolutely. however, i realised taking little things and feel happy does lighten the load of being unsatisfied. i can tell myself, "i'm contented" just by having the crystal jade's ramen and blind myself from having a proper date yesterday. oh well.

COMBAT!

times were better after the last post. it seems that the whole platoon was pretty hyper and crazy. after getting to know the dudes abit more, the place became a pretty good place to stay. the only thing to cope with were the tiring hours to stay awake for. the days were pretty long, from 5.30 in the morning, till 10 in the night. but with such great companions, long hours won't stop this fat bear from being down.

went out for thai this afternoon with darren and sy for some bro lunch. pretty good thai over at alexander rd in joe's kitchen. had a great talk and get to know some of their plans, which is mostly leaving sg for a short while to persue their studies. one's coming back though, and it's so fast. i didnt see cliff for a year and it just flew.

one full year of ns is ahead, i shall stay patient and not chao keng. i'll think of ben who is so damn eager to return to tekong anytime. combat!

chiong suah fatty...

why do they put eagles into chiong companies? it's been 3 stressful days, trying to read the commanders and the new peers. there's alot of changes and uncertainties that makes one insercure. it sucks to be in this position and it's definately gonna break me down at some point if i don't adapt to it quick enough.

another simple christmas for me today. nothing much to do at home, except for sleeping more than the usual in camp and waking up really late. really glad to receive some xmas greetings, knowing that some people still remember you within their mass sending. haha... i'm just being another ass waiting for ppl to send, but seems like there are really good ppl in this world. :)

heading back into camp later today, another 2 more days and i'll book out again. it's really good to have weeks being broken down by the one day public holidays.

playing with lighter...

left tekong for now and it was quite a sudden kinda feeling. i didnt really bid the commanders goodbye properly and the debrief was pretty sad. what to do...

i was very glad that i'm still in one piece and hope that i'll be in combat vocation, even though high chance i will be man than commander. well, that's the thrill that i get from chionging up and down and rolling on grass, soil and insects.

it's slacking time and nothing much to do. went out yesterday with keith and kinet and kept walking and walking. route march without fieldpack. haha. and talk alot of army shit. army really make me explore myself more. i realised i like japanese models. i prefer a one piece swimsuit compared to bikinis. i prefer shorties compared to g strings. i look out for the tummy. well. sounds damn pervertic but i'm just being truthful. one more last thing is, instead of saying "(smaller number) to (bigger number)", like when you ask me how many cups of water you drank today, the usually sequence of reply will be like "6 to 8 cups", i'll go the opposite, like "8 to 6 cups".

arh... wonderful wonderful. 1.5 years more and i can't wait to find out about myself more. sonuds like a kid though. sounds like i kinda wasted my 20 years not understanding myself.

time to move on...

i guess this is it. in 2 weeks, i'll be leaving tekong and it has marked a quart of my service term for the nation. till now, i guess it's pretty ok and met quite a number of people. it's kinda weird to see that some people try to boost things up but they don't sound convincing, but i guess the people i've met are pretty ok, except for a few i guess.

i've got to plan my off out already, i'm not going to waste the whole of my 12 days not doing anything. good thing kinet will be on leave too, so there's alot of jamming to do, just that jay will still be doing up his ocs thing. sigh.

there are somethings that i've got to think about. soul searching i guess. i still consistantly spend my time out in civilian wear with guys and i'm quite bored about it. where are the girls man? it's like i'm in a different planet now. i hardly talk much to them, i don't chat on the phone and i only type. i lost the touch to bring up an interesting topic and am slow to think. require me in buying these little gundam kits to be with. ain't it's just so otaku?

that 12 days, must not go to waste. one day for dim sum buffet. one day for sentosa. 2-3 days for jamming.

emo like never before...

2 hours ago, i was lying on my bed and pondering how much i'm alone. i do have friends and stuff, but i've always kinda love being cased up at home but there's this thing told me to actually move out and be outside with people. i've been doing this kinda think for the whole week and felt that i really did waste the whole block leave week to slacking and resting at home.

went out with jay and zw last night and kinda discussed about girls. i was wondering how to get a girlfriend and when is the good time to get. well, to be straight from jayson, i guess he's trying to say is that there isn't really a good time to get a girlfriend and there have to be confident to ask. i lack motivation and i'm afraid in this case. this is worst than physical fright man, metal torture man.

i'm very emo now. kana sai. i kept thinking about going down stairs to buy them. i think it will cure me. arh... maybe next time.

block leave... coming to an end...

i can say this is one of the best week that i've ever had in a long while. thks to the mercy of oc sir, the company got a week off from the 26 weeks of hell, which is left with about 4 weeks.

went to have a bbq yesterday and totally enjoyed it. enjoyed the meat and chicken wings. yum... kinda started smoking but keith told me to quit immediately. was down by peer pressure man...

2 more days to book in day and back to training. yeah... and i'm going to be a private soon. finally...