chiong suah fatty...

why do they put eagles into chiong companies? it's been 3 stressful days, trying to read the commanders and the new peers. there's alot of changes and uncertainties that makes one insercure. it sucks to be in this position and it's definately gonna break me down at some point if i don't adapt to it quick enough.

another simple christmas for me today. nothing much to do at home, except for sleeping more than the usual in camp and waking up really late. really glad to receive some xmas greetings, knowing that some people still remember you within their mass sending. haha... i'm just being another ass waiting for ppl to send, but seems like there are really good ppl in this world. :)

heading back into camp later today, another 2 more days and i'll book out again. it's really good to have weeks being broken down by the one day public holidays.

playing with lighter...

left tekong for now and it was quite a sudden kinda feeling. i didnt really bid the commanders goodbye properly and the debrief was pretty sad. what to do...

i was very glad that i'm still in one piece and hope that i'll be in combat vocation, even though high chance i will be man than commander. well, that's the thrill that i get from chionging up and down and rolling on grass, soil and insects.

it's slacking time and nothing much to do. went out yesterday with keith and kinet and kept walking and walking. route march without fieldpack. haha. and talk alot of army shit. army really make me explore myself more. i realised i like japanese models. i prefer a one piece swimsuit compared to bikinis. i prefer shorties compared to g strings. i look out for the tummy. well. sounds damn pervertic but i'm just being truthful. one more last thing is, instead of saying "(smaller number) to (bigger number)", like when you ask me how many cups of water you drank today, the usually sequence of reply will be like "6 to 8 cups", i'll go the opposite, like "8 to 6 cups".

arh... wonderful wonderful. 1.5 years more and i can't wait to find out about myself more. sonuds like a kid though. sounds like i kinda wasted my 20 years not understanding myself.

time to move on...

i guess this is it. in 2 weeks, i'll be leaving tekong and it has marked a quart of my service term for the nation. till now, i guess it's pretty ok and met quite a number of people. it's kinda weird to see that some people try to boost things up but they don't sound convincing, but i guess the people i've met are pretty ok, except for a few i guess.

i've got to plan my off out already, i'm not going to waste the whole of my 12 days not doing anything. good thing kinet will be on leave too, so there's alot of jamming to do, just that jay will still be doing up his ocs thing. sigh.

there are somethings that i've got to think about. soul searching i guess. i still consistantly spend my time out in civilian wear with guys and i'm quite bored about it. where are the girls man? it's like i'm in a different planet now. i hardly talk much to them, i don't chat on the phone and i only type. i lost the touch to bring up an interesting topic and am slow to think. require me in buying these little gundam kits to be with. ain't it's just so otaku?

that 12 days, must not go to waste. one day for dim sum buffet. one day for sentosa. 2-3 days for jamming.

emo like never before...

2 hours ago, i was lying on my bed and pondering how much i'm alone. i do have friends and stuff, but i've always kinda love being cased up at home but there's this thing told me to actually move out and be outside with people. i've been doing this kinda think for the whole week and felt that i really did waste the whole block leave week to slacking and resting at home.

went out with jay and zw last night and kinda discussed about girls. i was wondering how to get a girlfriend and when is the good time to get. well, to be straight from jayson, i guess he's trying to say is that there isn't really a good time to get a girlfriend and there have to be confident to ask. i lack motivation and i'm afraid in this case. this is worst than physical fright man, metal torture man.

i'm very emo now. kana sai. i kept thinking about going down stairs to buy them. i think it will cure me. arh... maybe next time.

block leave... coming to an end...

i can say this is one of the best week that i've ever had in a long while. thks to the mercy of oc sir, the company got a week off from the 26 weeks of hell, which is left with about 4 weeks.

went to have a bbq yesterday and totally enjoyed it. enjoyed the meat and chicken wings. yum... kinda started smoking but keith told me to quit immediately. was down by peer pressure man...

2 more days to book in day and back to training. yeah... and i'm going to be a private soon. finally...

Happy Deepavali

i'll try to blog in about 5 mins as i have to leave for tekong very soon.

the coming week is going to be outfield again and i'm missing home more than ever. one more week and i'm into a long break that is a week's worth, which i think it's a pretty good time to have it, and then it will be 5 more weeks to gp.

went out for the whole day yesterday and after 6months, i went to church finally. the church is moving into a new location and it's really big and stuff. after not going to church for so long, it does feel weird to be in it and it kinda feel good getting to see all the familiar faces again. i guess i'll be heading to church for the next 2 weeks straight as i've having mondays off.

come on... let this week fly man, hope it's not going to be a drag on me.

time to go!

0200 - Puking

got a really bad stomach at 12am in the morning in camp and i was very reluctant to head to the toilet for a remedy. had diarrhea the night before and went into 'solitary confinement' with my newsweek magazine at least 3 times before bedtime.

2am, i decided to liberate myself. pinkish coloured dinner was flushed out of my mouth and i didn't really feel any better. that sucks. why am i so unlucky?

5.45am, breakfast. i started to get very light headed and i was blinded partially. i took a fall before marching off to cook house. went to the medical center but was asked to come back later as my condition turned stable upon arrival. puked again in company line.

7.24am - 10.23am. time spent in the medical center and then went back to company line.

11,00am. went back to medical center with the rest of the diarrhea victims while the others book out.

12.30pm - book out with a spool sample bottle.

that's my morning and i totally disliked it to be in this way. i don't mind giving blood samples as the pain is temporary, however, spool! i collected the sample just minutes ago, after several attempts of bowel relief, which is futile. first time i have to look at my shit, use the bottle spool to dig my shit and then collect my shit. the idea of collecting my shit sounds really bad. sigh... bad day.

Unfit for duty... so go home loh...

sian... one some way it's good for others but still getting an ATT C isn't good. it's good to hit home very early but it isn't good when my field camp week is coming up the following week. shit, i'll be in day two status which i'm not sure if i'm able to join in the field camp, neither my ps, or he just wanna act dunno or shit. i think he dun like me sia...

i lost the battle to the only survivor in my section to not go see the mo, and the winner is bird. somehow, it sucked to lose to bird, but well it was a good battle. i remembered how i struggled through a flu, ultra aches that dun allow me to lift my arms and a sprained ankle at one time, and not see the mo. but this time, i can't escape. fever MUST report, so go see mo loh.

headed home at 1000hrs from the island, after climbing up and down the stairs to search for the bunk keys. touched friendly grounds at 1200hrs, bathed and slp till 1800 hours. about 6 hours of sleep, deducting all the ding dings and dong dongs.

God, let me go for field camp.

short holiday...

came back home yesterday due to today's public holiday, so went out with jay and zhi wei in the night for a movie.

Connected was the name and it was a Hong Kong made Cellular. i was expecting an all serious kinda movie that will be able to make me grip my toes, but it wasn't like that at all. the movie plot was pretty good i thought, but it lack the suspense. however, there was humour in the movie, which pretty much wrapped up the value for the ticket.

i was thinking of watching Eagle Eye (is this the name?). looks like a pretty good movie to me. i guess i should ask some girls to watch with the current 3 of us, or 4 if kinet is welling to travel.

2 more training days and it's the next weekend, and i'm pretty much broke, and very over budget. sigh, ns pay is really pathetic.

growing up

when we were younger, the point of time where we took note of our growth is during the period of puberty, and it does do alot of changes. however, puberty halts at a certain age.

jay, zw and i were up pretty late in jp last night, pondering over a new song and trying to come our with lyrics that weren't too much of a cliche. a song about growing up. i took notice of my own actions through the years, how much i've grown more straightforward and realistic in alot of means. tilting back time for a brief moment, i rememebered all the funny faces i gave and childish things i've done. regretable and, at times, blissful. i do notice the different reactions the commuting party and i had portrayed. it changed. i remembered how a girl used to pout whenever she sees me and i'll "what?" back as a friendly gesture, the last time i saw her, she wasn't doing that anymore, neither did i carry my usual reply. can be a sad thing though.

the lyrics are not up yet, so is the melody, give it some time. another 6/8 time sig production, gonna screw my heads out of it...

the E-mole...

Under Construction for the moment...

blogging seems to be quite addictive. well, after a 3 month hiatus, due to getting bored of speaking out and trying to believe and encapsulation, i still guess i'm a pretty talkative guy, through the keyboard perhaps.

this layout kinda look quite shitty for now, and my laptop is down. no plans to revive it so i've got to build one up maybe.

3 more months of basic soldiering to go till i get promoted to private. it's still super fun, just the selfish people, waiting time and occasional mood swings from superiors spoil the fun. well... short weekend.